They told me that these “intrusive thoughts” would be transient. Violent impulses that flash in your mind then are gone. Mostly they were right, but one didn’t fade away.
I told my shrink about it but he said not to worry. He asked if I ever acted on these impulses and I hadn’t. He said that was the proof that they were harmless, and that I shouldn’t dwell on them.
But it kept coming back until I couldn’t stand it. I did it. So much blood. I feel better now. I’m going to have to get a new shrink though.