100 Words – Meditation Anxiety

My attempts at meditation are without discipline. I’ve got the sitting quietly part down pretty good and I’m very good at breathing. Then comes the clearing your head part. I start off good, letting thoughts enter my head and float away like clouds, passing through my consciousness barely acknowledged. Then a thought will catch my attention. An epiphany? Some great truth revealed? No, some trivial idea burlesqued into a story idea. The next twenty minutes spent pursuing the idea to usually unsatisfactory results. Then I realize what I’ve done, return to my breathing, but the moment for reflection has passed.

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Book Review – Passion Play by Jerzy Kosinski

In this 1979 novel Jerzy projects himself into the role of errant knight polo player Fabian. Aging seducer of young girls, wandering the country in his camper/stable on wheels, looking for polo matches or a short teaching gig, with occasional diversions into sex clubs and pre-op transsexuals.

Fabian’s main problem is that he’s too good at the game for his own good. So good in fact that no one will play with him or against him. Kosinski repeats this theme in 1982′s PINBALL, only in that case it’s an aging composer who was too good for his own good. It might be argued that Kosinski considered his writing to be too good, or at least too far over the heads of most readers. I think most writers feel that at some point in their careers, though almost none of them can back that sentiment up with a masterpieces like THE PAINTED BIRD or BEING THERE.

That is of course the problem with most of Kosinski’s books; They are only very good. Always people look back to his crowning glories and ask, “why isn’t this new book that great?”

I enjoyed this book. It was at points more cynical and conversely more romantic than I expected. I like being surprised. One difficulty I imagine some readers would have is not knowing, or at least not believing, that a polo player would illicit such lust in the hearts of women. Well, then you’ve never known a young female equestrian. I lost more than one object of desire to the visiting polo scoundrel, so no suspension of disbelief was required on my part.

One of the things I did not like were some of the more tediously drawn out sex scenes. I think Kosinski was aware of this and worked on it because his next book PINBALL has several of the hottest sex scenes I’ve ever read.

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Random Thought

Truman, oh Truman, what lies have you told today? Hold your tongue and listen to the wind. It is weeping.

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Bike Projects Updates

MiniB – Got it all put back together and now I have to take it apart again. The wheels are way wobbly. Apparently I didn’t get the spokes back on right. Ah well, that’s how we learn.

eBaby – I’m finally giving in and admitting that the gears are too steep for me. I was contemplating putting on a triple chainring in front, but I did the match and decided to get a wider range cassette for the rear. I found an 11-32 9 speed cheap on eBay. Currently it has an 11-21 9 speed.

Rocky – I’ve been looking for some cheap 26″ wheels for a while without luck. On a whim I put the Easton 700c wheels on and was amazed that they fit. So once the new cassette comes for the ebaby I’m going to put the 11-21 on Rocky. That should complete all the parts I need. This will not be a normal bike.

 

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Random Thought

How can a person grow to adulthood and not know how to treat a gunshot wound?

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I’m selling stuff on eBay

I’m selling a bike, a couple front derailleurs and a rear derailleur on eBay.

Take A look

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100 words – Another Dance

Hello June. Teach me to waltz and I’ll buy you a rose. Then we’ll sit in the balcony, you smelling your new flower and me eating chocolate Pez from Winnie the Pooh’s goiter. The dancers below will twirl and swirl and unfurl. You’ll laugh at my silly alliterations. Then we’ll sit quietly for a while, both dreading what will happen next. You, for the rejection you must give. Me, knowing of the impending rejection but driven by needs unrelenting. Sex always gets in the way, especially when there isn’t any. I try to lose myself in distraction. You’re crying again.

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Random Thought

If a moan was a song the doomed would rule the world.

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100 words – Judging You

One day at the fabric warehouse the daughter of one of the cutters said to her mother that she was afraid that everyone in school was judging her. Her mother told her that no one was judging her. The girl looked to me for confirmation. I couldn’t lie. I told her that all the other kids were judging her, but what they thought didn’t matter. The girl stood up and yelled at her mother, “See, that’s what I need to hear! The truth!” She sat down and went back to stuffing fall catalog into envelopes. Her mother scowled at me.

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A new kart track!

Me at speedLast weekend I took a trip to K1 Speed in Santa Clara. I was lured there by a two-for-one coupon.

This was my first experience in electric karts. I hate to admit it but I really did miss the engine noise. Not just the whole motorhead mentality but I’m used to matching the engine noise to  momentum going into corners. The electric motor’s noises were more subtle and will take quite a bit of practice to internalize.

The other thing about the karts is that they were small. I’m only five-eight and have shorter than average legs but I had to bend my knees considerably to keep my feet from pressing the pedals. A couple times I failed and hit both pedals at once which triggers a switch which causes the kart to move at a crawl for several seconds. Not a big deal in a practice session but would be horrible in a race.

Besides all that I had a great time. The track had good traction and had some challenging corners. After the first session I was running about .9 seconds off the lap record. No bad.

The second session did not go so well. The kart had less power than the first and the brakes were terrible. This put me back about a send a lap. To their credit when I pointed out the issues with the kart the track guy he thanked me and said he’d take care of it. So if you go and get kart 16 and the brakes are OK, then he actually did something about it.

 

 

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